Post Thanksgiving Blues

So, after the BIG Thanksgiving gathering we had at our house, I didn't have it in me to make the s'mores brownies for our 2nd Thanksgiving gathering at Dan's Uncle's house today. You need to know that if I don't feel like making a chocolaty dessert, something's wrong! Something is bothering me and I can't quite put my finger on it. My family is healthy, my marriage is good, I have a job interview on Wed. - it's not like I don't have any hopes for finding a new job, at least I have an interview scheduled. Hmmm. Not. Sure. It bugs me when something's eatin' at me and I can't figure out what it is. It could be the job thing...it seems like each time I find myself in an o.k. place about the job situation, I get another letter from them. The mail man left a card for a registered letter for me yesterday. Why don't they just leave me alone? You know, I didn't argue, fuss, or fight when they told me I was dismissed; maybe those who are behind this are trying to stir up the conflict they didn't get from me at that time. Spiritual warfare! The enemy is hard at work, but the Bible tells me,

"Yes I am sure that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor ruling spirits,
nothing now, nothing in the future, no powers, nothing above [me], nothing
below [me] nor anything else in the whole world will ever be able to
separate [me] from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, [my]
Lord."
Romans 8:38-39 NCV

That makes me feel better. There is nothing the enemy can do to me as long as I have Christ. I need to dwell on this for a while...

R-E-L-I-E-F

I have to say, it was quite a relief to wake up this morning and know that I don't have to go to work. The only stress to deal with is the usual "expected" stress of being a mom of 3. Praise God!

Yesterday morning when I woke the twins up for preschool, I picked a sleeping Adam up from bed and he pulled his knees up to his chest and brought his hands up to his face...I had a sweet flashback of him as a little baby. It made me sad. I said, "Adam, don't grow up. You're my little baby, I don't want you to grow up." He said, "mom, if I don't grow up I won't ever go to college; then I'll never learn how to read!" So sweet and innocent. Katie is crackin' me up with the facial expressions she makes when she's talking, especially when she's tattling on Adam. She is so interested in Art and so good for her age. She so enjoys coloring pictures and she has a neat imagination. Sophie is so cute, she says she loves "Tate" the best, but Adam is her friend. She can't pronounce the "k" sound, so everything with that sound comes out "t", so she calls Katie, "Tatie", but lately she's been calling her "Tate"

I have a lot to do today to prepare for the holiday. Where to begin? That whole 1-room-a-day thing doesn't work for me because once I leave the room, children begin to trash it again. I long for the day that housework isn't done in vain. How glorious it will be to clean the house and have it stay clean for more than 24hrs. But, then that will mean my babies are all grown up :( I think Sophie and I will go to Starbucks after we drop Adam & Katie off at school this morning. May as well celebrate with a mocha!

A Simple Woman's Daybook

Outside My Window...is sunshine and a brown hillside - Florida's only evidence of Autumn

I am thinking...I need to get my house ready for company (insert whimper here)

I am thankful for...my husband, my kids, our health, our parent's health. All the provisions that God allows us in these desperate times. I'm thankful for an interview I have next Wed. with a dentist here in Clermont, 15 minutes from home. I'm thankful for God's faithfulness! I'm thankful that Dan's dad is still alive, 2 years ago he sat at the Thanksgiving table and said that would be his last Thanksgiving. 4 years ago, 1 month before Thanksgiving he had a massive heart attack. A&K were only 4 months old. I'm so thankful that he's still here, watching his grand kids grow up.

From the learning rooms...hopefully we're going to make sun catcher's today or tomorrow, and we're going to work on spelling our last name.
From the kitchen...pot roast for today, Tues., & Wed. will be pretty low key. Wed. is "pie day" - I'll be baking my "blue ribbon" pecan pie, and pumpkin pie, of course. Thanksgiving at our house, home- grown turkey with all the trimmin's. Saturday we have Thanksgiving at Dan's uncle's house, which is my favorite part of Thanksgiving, because all I have to do is show up and eat! I do bring dessert. This year it will be homemade s'mores brownies.

I am wearing...Jeans and a plum striped Henley

I am creating...monkey socks...still

I am going...C-R-A-Z-Y

I am reading..."Climbing The Mango Trees, A Memoir Of Childhood In India" It's all about food, of course.

I am hoping...to get some of the monkey (sock) off my back this week despite the crazy holiday stuff.

I am hearing...The t.v. from the other room. Sophie is watching Spongebob, my least favorite cartoon, but I don't hear her, so that means she's very occupied by the t.v. or she's doin' somethin' bad. I guess I'll find out soon enough.

Around the house...dirty floors, an unfinished redecorate of A&K's room - having a boy & girl in the same room offers quite the decorating challenge! I need to move one dresser out, another in, make a clothing transfer from dresser to dresser, and make & hang big colored polka dots on the walls. My obsessive-compulsive nature wants this to be done by Wed.

One of my favorite things...cafe mocha from Starbucks, it's really my favorite if I get to drink it in silence while it's still hot. You moms know where I'm goin' with this.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: besides what I've already written, not much.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing... awwww! They do love each other despite all the fighting!

One Monkey Down, One To Go!

I finished one of the Monkey socks last night. See! These aren't great pictures, but you get the idea. Not bad for my first attempt at making a "real" sock. I have to say, it's one of the most comfy socks my foot has ever worn. I'm struggling with my selfish little self to actually give it away. It took me like a month to knit. I'm so rotten! I am going to give it away though, because deep down inside I know it's better to give than to receive. I just hope it doesn't take me another month to knit the mate. At this rate, if I want to knit Christmas presents for more than one person I'll have to start knitting in February in order to have everything done by December.

Anyway, this is knit with Dream in Color Smooshy Sock Yarn in the "Into The Mystic" colorway. I got the yarn from my friend's cute little yarn shop www.sonnyandshear.com/ check it out.

God Is So Good!

So, I got fired on Tuesday. I can't say I didn't see this coming, but I have to admit my pride is a little hurt. I've never been fired from a job. My take on the situation is that I was so resistant to the Lord's gentle counsel telling me that it was time to move on from this job He had to get a little aggressive with me and take the choice away from me. The sad part is that I wanted the opportunity to tell them they could take their job and shove it. Not very Christian of me I know, but I'm a work in progress. Funny thing, Tuesday morning before work, I was reading my bible, looking for a little insight for the day. In "The Message" Proverbs 16:14 reads: "An intemperate leader wreaks havoc in lives; You're smart to stay clear of someone like that." That one sentence made everything alright for me and I was almost prepared for what that day eventually held for me.

Dan is actually glad this happened. He never liked where I worked anyway. He just supported me because he knew how important it was to me. He's an awesome man. Props to my man Dan!

Yesterday I updated my resume, and wrote a new cover letter for it (it's been 8 years since I've even looked at it). Just as my resume was completed and almost 24 hours after I was terminiated from my position I received a call from a friend, who by the way, I had already asked if she knew of anyone looking for a hygienist and she hadn't. She was calling to tell me she got a call that day from a dental office in Clermont looking for a hygienist 2 days a week. I called the office today and it sounds like a perfect match for me. I will have a working interview on Dec. 3. I can't help but see the Lord's hand in this. God is so faithful to me; I am so unfaithful to Him and I don't deserve His mercy or His grace. Yet it overflows and I am continuously so abundantly blessed by Him.

All of this has led to my baking another batch of Snickerdoodles, because the batch I baked on Monday, well they never saw Tuesday. I shared, a few. A little bit of emotional baking and consumption of said baked goods is happening around here. But, it's all good. I'm thinking tomorrow I'll do something ooey, gooey, & hugely chocolate.

Snickerdoodles

Have you heard of them? A lot of folks from the south haven't. I was born in Michigan and lived there until I was 11. I can't fully remember how I learned about them, but when I try really hard I get a strong feeling I learned about them in Brownies.

Well, I made Snickerdoodles this morning...I ate them for breakfast and lunch. In case anyone wonders how I keep my girlish figure, I eat dessert first. I eat less food that way.

Snickerdoodles are like a soft, buttery sugar cookie that is rolled in cinnamon and sugar before baking. Here's the recipe:

2 3/4 cups flour

2 tsp. baking powder

1/2 tsp salt

1 cup (2 sticks) butter at room temp.

1 1/2 cups plus 2 Tbsp sugar

2 large eggs

2 tsp ground cinnamon

1. Preheat oven to 350 F. Mix together flour, baking powder and salt. Set aside. With an electric mixer, cream together butter and sugar until pale and fluffy (about 3 min.) Mix in eggs. Gradually mix in flour. Stir only until all the flour is incorporated.

2. Stir together cinnamon and remaining sugar in a shallow bowl. Shape dough into 1" balls and roll in cinnamon sugar. Space 2" apart on parchment lined baking sheet.

3. Bake cookies 7-9 minutes - until edges are beginning to brown.

*This recipe adapted from "Martha Stewart's Cookies"

Mom! Adam Said He's Not Going To Marry Me!

This morning as we were piling into the car, Katie and Adam were bickering back and forth (very typical of those two) and I felt compelled to ask what the problem was. Katie exclaimed, "Mom, Adam said he's not going to marry me when I grow up!" To that I replied, "um, that's a good thing because brothers and sisters don't marry each other." Katie then said to Adam, "When I grow up, you're not going to see me get married, but I will let you see my baby." Okay! These kids are 4 years old and they're talking about marriage and babies.

These kids have been especially cranky today! I can't wait for bedtime. 2 hours and counting...

A Soothing Tongue...

As I've gone through my day today, I've had a constant struggle in keeping my thoughts captive. I'm still struggling with this issue from work on Thurs. I'm trying not to dwell on the negative, but it's stinkin' hard not to feel angry. I am someone who wants conflict resolved quickly and without any casualties. So, as I anticipate what my work day will be like on Tuesday, I feel a menagerie of emotions. I know I will be having a meeting with my boss and the before mentioned "creep" who wrote me up. I want so much to die to my self and just be a perfect vessel for the Holy Spirit. I don't want to misrepresent or disappoint my Lord. So, I'm praying for peace of mind, clarity and purity of mind, and a soothing tongue. Proverbs 15:4 says, "A soothing tongue is a tree of life, but perversion in it crushes the spirit." Ephesians 4:29 says, "Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear." May I meditate on these two verses and keep my thoughts and words acceptable to God.

Employee Of The Month

So, remember that forboding feeling I awakened to this morning? Yeah, this was the worst day I've had at work in almost 8 years. It's a long story. The jist...well I was assertive, said something to someone who I felt needed to hear what I had to say, I said it mild-mannered (although they claimed otherwise), and...I've been put on 90 day probation for insubordination, and termination has been threatened. I guess I didn't learn much from my study this morning. Why am I so dense? Why couldn't I just let the creep be the creep? Why'd I have to jump into the creep-hole with them?
Today was one of those days where I would rather have stayed at home with fighting children, dirty laundry, dirty dishes, that weird, unidentifiable "thing" I found in the corner of the playroom, and the occasional "potty" accident among other things.
Okay, so in the midst of my tearfully telling Dan what happened at work today, Adam shouts out, "hey mom! what's employee of the month?" Dan cracked up laughing as I replied, "it's sure not me sweetie." I guess every gray cloud does have a silver lining.

Shut Up and Pedal!

I've really been struggling with the situation at work and some issues with my babysitter. I'm having a hard time letting go and letting God. I am working again today and have awakened to an uneasy feeling. Someone told me on Tuesday that pain is very hungry; and pain must consume pain. Often times a person in your life who is causing you a great deal of pain are themselves in a great deal of pain and they are creating pain in you for their pain to consume. Is that clear as mud? It was very enlightening to me. It helps me to have a little bit of compassion for the people who are causing me grief.
When I did a short Bible study in Proverbs this morning I was reminded to, "trust in the Lord with all [my] heart and lean not on [my] own understanding." Proverbs 3:5 There was an illustrative narration in my study by an unknown source:

At first I saw God as my observer, my judge, keeping the things I did wrong, so
as to know whether I merited heaaven or hell when I die...but later on when I recognized God, it seemed as though life was rather like a bike ride, but it was a tandem bike, and I noticed that God was in the back helping me pedal. I do not know just when it was that He suggested we change places, but life has not been the same since. Life without my God, that is...when I had control I knew the way...it was the shortest distance between two points. But when He took the lead, He knew delightful longcuts, up mountains, through rocky places, and at breakneck speeds! It was all I could do to hang on! Even though it looked like madness, He said, "pedal!" I worried and as anxious and asked, "where are you taking me?" He laughed and didn't answer. I started to learn to
trust. I forgot my boring life and entered into adventure. And when I'd say "I am scared," He's lean
back and touch my hand...I did not trust Him in control of my life at first, I thought He'd wreck it.
But He knows bike secrets. He knows how to make it bend to take sharp corners, jump to clear high rocks, fly to shorten scary passages. And I am learning to shut up and pedal in the strangest places, and I am beginning to enjoy the view and the cool breeze on my face with my delightful, constant companion, my God. And when I am sure I just cannot do anymore, He smiles and says, "pedal."

I long for the day when I can be in this place. To be more trusting of my God, to remeber that He's in control, that He will get me through the rocky places, that He is a great navigator of all things difficult.

May He bless you today and may you allow Him to take the front seat.

Want To See My Monkey?

This is a progress picture of the Monkey Socks I'm knitting for A&K's teacher.

It's a fun and simple pattern. Not sure they'll be done in time for Christmas, but I'm trying. It's hard to fit the knitting into all of the things I "have" to do. I'd like to let everything else go and just knit...but, well, you know...

My husband asks me, "can't you buy a pair of socks for like $5? why do you go through all the trouble to knit them when you can buy them?"

Dan most always chooses the option that makes life easiest.

For me, it's not trouble, it's fun. Learning to knit was a great accomplishment for me because I'm left-handed, and well, let's face it, the majority of the world is right-handed, thus all the books and teachers are too. So, I'm proud that for once in my life I follwed through and learned how to do something that I had always thought I would never learn because it would be too hard or too much work. If I could reach, I would pat myself on the back.

Love is...

Last night at bedtime Adam was over-tired and quite cranky. He insisted that he didn't need to was his sticky hands before going to bed, actually he very angrily shouted "I am NOT washing my hands!" Understanding that he is just very tired, I left his room to put Sophie to bed, came back and found him all snuggled up in his bed. I asked "Adam, did you wash your hands?" He said, "no!" I said, "oh Adam, you don't love your momma" He said, "oh yes I do, I do love you mommy" Teasing him, I said, "you don't even know what love is" he said, "yes I do, love is when you kiss and hug your mommy and daddy. I love you and I love daddy, but really I just love you, because daddy gives slimey kisses and you give the best kisses." Out of the mouths of babes...

I worked yesterday. I left work in a blue mood. We have a supervisor who is very critical and seems to find joy in correcting and/or controlling others. It's hard to have a joyful spirit in an environment like that. My workplace used to be my respite from all the work I do at home. Now, with the exception of the people I am helping, I feel unhappy going to work. We all know what that means...it's time for a change. I'd love to find a part time job with a good Christian dentist here in Clermont.

I love being a Dental Hygienist, but I'd love to own a little tea & cupcake shop. It would be so much fun. Maybe when my kids are all grown up. Speaking of kids, take a look at these cuties...

Adam & Katie at Epcot

Sophie making pizza

The Simple Woman's Daybook~November 10th

For Today...November 10, 2008

Outside my window...is a sunny day, a view of Sugarloaf Mountain, a Persian Lime tree that needs pickin'

I am thinking...I have a metric ton of housework to do today

Fom the learning rooms...I want to work with Katie on spelling her last name. Adam, well I need to work with him on perfectin his penmanship a little more.

I am thankful for...my husband, who washed a sink full of dishes for me last night, my children, and a sweet 30 minutes I got to hold and rock Sophie at 3:00am this morning.

I am wearing...jeans, a black t-shirt, pink and black kitty slippers.

From the kitchen...there's some leftover spaghetti for lunch, I am making Shepherd's Pie for dinner. I have some gooey chocolate chip cookies waiting for my afternoon snack/reward. I'll be making Thai peanut chicken, and maybe chicken pot pie later in the week.

I am reading...The Alchemist

I am hoping...that I get my laundry room spotless and perfectly organized before I have to pick up Adam & Katie from preschool this morning.

I am creating...Monkey Socks for A & K's preschool teacher for Christmas.

Around the house...little things to be picked up in every room. I was bound to my bed on Friday with some terrible stomach bug, we went to Disney on Saturday, to Dan's parents yesterday. All of which means my house has been terrorized by small children and neglected by me for three days. Not. Good.

One of my favorite things...peace and quiet with a little side of something ooey, gooey, & chocolately.

A few plans for the rest of the week...tonight is my Ladies Accountability group. I'm working Tues. & Thurs. Wed. I'll get stuff ready for a special little girl's yard sale, and I may update my resume.

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

This is my Captain Jack Sparrow!

So Sad

This is a sad day for me. I am so disappointed that the majority of this great nation would put a man into office who calls himself the "American Messiah." Maybe it's just me, but I find that so errogant! I'm not a sore loser. He played a better game. I am just saddened by the fact that the ecomony, gay rights, & the right to abort babies from their mother's womb, among other issues, seem to reign supreme in many hearts; when it is He, our Father in heaven, "who so [loves us] He gave His only begotten son that none should perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16. He and his values should reign supreme. Maybe I'm too legalistic. So sad.

The Daily Grind

I'm off to work this morning. Today is the one day a week that I get paid to work, and I don't have to work as hard as I do at home. I'm a Public Health Dental Hygienist, at the moment. Things at work haven't been so great lately. Budget cuts, politics, cliques...you know how it goes. It makes me sad because I've had this job for almost 8 years and I have truly enjoyed working in the public health arena. But, all things change and I have to learn to move with the changes or be stuck in a very bad place. I read the book "Who Moved My Cheese?" a few years ago. I can't remember the author's name. A good book that teaches how to accept change.

On another note...the kids are all ready for school. A&K have had their breakfast and they're dressed and ready to go out the door. Sophie has a tummy ache this morning. She goes to the babysitter on the days I work. She has a best friend that she gets to play with when she goes to the sitter so she's happy to see me go to work.

I just looked out my window to see a cloudy day, but my heart just smiled as I saw our chickens have jumped over the fence and are pluckin' around in the yard. There must be lots of bugs this morning. It's gloomy this morning, but the chickens add a bright, beautiful splash of color to the yard.

so, my time has come...I'm off to the "trenches" wish me luck.

Banana Bread Recipe

I love this recipe and I've been using it for years. It reminds me of the dentist who used to work at the clinic with me. He loved banana bread. He's with the Lord now, but almost every time I make this I think of him.

You can add walnuts if you like. You can also omit the spices and add semi-sweet chocolate chips for a really yummy chocolate banana indulgence!

Preheat oven to 350F

1 stick butter

3/4 cup sugar

2 eggs

3 small ripe bananas, mashed

1 tsp vanilla extract

2 cups AP flour

1/2 tsp baking soda

1/2 tsp baking powder

1/2 tsp salt

1/4 tsp ground nutmeg

1/2 tsp cinnamon

Mix all dry ingredients in a small bowl and set aside.

Using an electric mixer, cream together the butter and sugar until fluffy. Add eggs, mix until blended. Add mashed bananas and vanilla - mixture will look curdled.

Add dry ingredients to wet and mix just until combined. Do not overmix. Pour into a buttered loaf pan and bake for about 35-45 minutes or until golden and a toothpick inserted in center comes out clean.

Enjoy!

A New Day Begins

A friend, she knows who she is, suggested that I begin a blog because I have a whole lot of interesting things going on in my life. So, this is for you T.

My kids, twins: Adam & Katie (4), and surprise child: Sophie (2) keep my days full of drama, excitement, messes and laughter. As I am writing this I hear uncontrolled laughter from the other room as someone has turned on the central vaccum and they are "cleaning." The Vaccum just went off and I heard Adam say, "good thing we cleaned up." That could mean they vaccumed the excess of Cheerios that got spilled at breakfast, or it could mean they spilled the fish food all over the kitchen floor and they are covering their hineys. Either way at least they are trying to help.

I decided to make english muffin pizzas for lunch. When I told Adam he said, "well, do you have flat english muffins?" Yes. "Do you have tomato sauce?" Yes. "Do you have cheese?" Yes. "The white cheese?" Yes. "The sprinkley white cheese?" Yes. "Then come on mom, let's make them." He never misses a detail.

We went shopping with their dad (Dan) on Sat. and Adam & Sophie went to one store with Dan, and Katie went to another store with me. My cell phone was off and Dan couldn't find me when he was finished. Adam began to ask Dan, "where will I get a new mommy, and where will I sleep?" I'm afraid to say that I think Adam got my gene for excessive worrying.

I have all the ingredients ready to make a nice loaf of banana bread today... that will be my afternoon snack. I'm hoping to get some knitting accomplished today. I cast on Monkey Socks from Knitty.com yesterday and I am hoping to finish them by the 2nd week in Dec. They are going to be a Christmas gift for A&K's preschool teacher.

I'm off to make pizza.